What is it with women and babies?

When you see babies, especially little babies, are you one of those people who goes 'ala cutenya' or 'eiy baby', maybe not outloud, but at least to yourself or enough so anyone close to you can hear it.

When someone you know gives birth, do you feel that kick inside you to wish to have a baby too, just because.... Even though in reality that idea may not really be a good one at the moment because you just had a baby some 18 months ago ke, or you're just too busy with work, or your kids are just at the age where you can actually relax a bit so you want to enjoy that a little. Nevertheless, the longing would still be there. .

I was one of the unlucky ones who had to endure a really painful childbirth, where I was not given enough drug during a c-section. Yes, you got it, and no, I am not kidding. I felt the knife cutting each layer, and even felt the surgeon hands probing inside. It might have been a little under 2 minute ordeal because when they finally paid attention to my scream *wasn't a loud one, because I was weak, and had oxygen mask on me*, they immediately went into this 'fix-the-problem' mode and got me addtl dose of anaesthetic till I couldn't feel a thing. But that 2 minute felt like eternity, I literally felt butchered.

In the post-partum room, I had my friends already waiting for me. About 12 of them, and more people in the next 5 days of my hospital stay, heard the story, and heard me saying 'there's no way I'm doing that again. Uh - uh. I'm done'

Right! (sarcastically :) Two years later, I found myself on another operating table. This time begging the anaesthetist to knock me out well, while telling him again and again about my first experience and how I don't want that to happen again. I was still awake because it's only a local anaesthetic, but to my delight, I felt nothing. Thank goodness.

So, I'm one of those women who will do that when I see babies, at the mall, at kenduri, at restaurants.. I like to peek strollers to see the little thing inside. Darn, I have that kick again now. Longing for a baby. But longing is all, for now..

They're just too precious, right.. Look at my Sophie. my Hanna. My Mira. (She's got many nicknames). This is her right after she's taken out of my tummy

And a few hours after that...

and a few months after that..



Then, about a year and many months after that, suddenly she turned into a little lady. . The baby fat, the baby face is gone..



And this is her now, at 2 year 9 months. Would you blame me if I keep wondering 'Where did my baby go?'

Lucky I have tons of her baby pictures. That seem to satisfy the craving for now..

Again, how precious. How precious to see something so tiny grows right in front of your very eyes